A lot actually. Sometimes when there is a lot going on, it’s harder for me to sort it out and compartmentalize it enough to put it in chapters, but that’s what I’m going to attempt to do from this point forward, because I need to be here.  I need to write, it’s been too long, […]

This term from college when I was studying Sociology popped into my head tonight:  Cognitive disbelief.  It turns out the term is cognitive dissonance:  the mental stress or discomfort experienced by an individual who holds two or more contradictory beliefs, ideas, or values at the same time, or is confronted by new information that conflicts […]

I remember a time in my 20s when I was so crazy busy that I thought I needed a personal assistant or at the least, someone to hold the phone on speaker while I was in the shower.  Running running running. Life is busy.  We’re all busy.  Life continues to get busier if you let […]

Yesterday, the police shot a homeless man three blocks away from my loft.  I watched the video today, listened to the onlookers’ unedited reactions, and to be quite honest, I’ve been digesting it all day.  Not being a fan of cops in general, especially the LAPD, my gut reaction is always to assume the cops […]

I’m not stupid. I helped run a company for 12 years, got a financial license against my will and have been successful in my career for 24 years. I have been poor and my heart and head is still punk as fuck. I went to college for five years trying to triple major like a […]

OK, when I say it’s been a fucked up day, I’m exaggerating, but I’m not.  It could’ve been much worse and I’ve had worse, but it’s just *how* it was fucked up that’s amazing. There is going to be a lot of “fuck” in this post.  Sorry, or not.  I don’t really have fucks to […]

Hey Auntie, I just thought about something I hadn’t thought about for a while.  It was a little inside joke we had… BOK.  I just said to my dog, “Everything is going to ‘be OK’,” and then laughed because I thought of you. I think about you a lot.  I miss you.  You were such […]